Well, the first two week trip of the summer is done....and I'm exhausted. I think for the first time I am finally starting to realize how hard this job is. Waking up at 6:30, cooking breakfast, devos, 5 hours on the worksite pouring cement or digging trenches 9 feet deep, then 2 hours of VBS with little kids, then cooking dinner, then a shower(maybe), then 2 hours of teaching in Team Time, and then in bed at 11pm. Wake up the next day and repeat it all again. I just got done with my first ever two week trip that I was leading completely on my own and I am exhausted. Our next team comes in tomorrow at 2pm after the first team left today at noon.
I'm so tired. How do people do this? My interns are looking to me to lead them and I am confident in what I'm doing, but really? Two weeks straight of leading is exhausting....and I have 8 weeks left. I've been taking it one day at a time, because I think I would drive myself crazy if I didn't. I think I am finally realizng what Christ said when he told us he would give us enough grace for today, so don't worry about tomorrow. But it's still hard. I find myself daily praying through the armor of God in Ephesians 6 as I feel constantly attacked with lies that I'm not doing a good job or that I'm failing. And it's good. I mean, as tired as I am, I feel good. I know the work we are doing this summer in Costa Rica is having a Kingdom impact and it feels amazing. A girl on our trip, Rachel, who had struggling with some real pain in her life and the inability to trust people, wrote me a note today. She wrote, "Dan, thank you so much. You said that if you could change the life of one student, the trip would be worth it. Well, I plan on changing my life when I get home. I'm not going to believe lies anymore. So thank you for your impact.--Rachel." Reading that note made me believe in what I was doing. It reminded me why I do this. I do this to bring Restoration to the Kingdom, to Fight For the Life That Was Stolen. And it's working. We're taking ground. Keep praying. Thank you.
-Dan-
2 comments:
Dude, I'm tired just reading your post.
Miss ya lots -- and praying hard for you, bro. Hope it's a fantastic summer. God's the only one who can refresh and restore -- so find your rest in him alone.
Peace,
C
dan, let me know when you are in fraijanes!!!
you can do it. i believe in you. you are powerful and prepared and equipped and being used beyond your expectations. Lean into God and He will give you the rest you need each day!!
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